Burnout

Burnout is a state of physical, emotional, and mental exhaustion caused by long-term involvement in emotionally demanding situations.
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what do feel if someone suddenly come screaming out loud right beside your ear and in public. then all people around around u starts to stare at u like u were guilty in a way. it was not some kind of practical jokes neither a way to attract attention. i was loud, hasty and "nyaring-tahap-bingit-telinga" out of a sudden , complete packaged. n i got a big presentation in a couple of minutes. isn't stressing, distracting n humiliating? my reaction was..

"pukimak!! kepala hotak mak kaw r weh! lancau anak haram! sundal!! anjing!! babi! pe masalah ko ni sial??!!!"

but i didn't said it. i would and i keenly wanna do it with "penumbuk n penerajang" at the same time. but i didn't. seriously. for those whose known me for a long time should know how i would react to something similar like what happened earlier. it happened. but luckily this time i didn't explode. yet, i manage to keep my cool but the effect.. it burns inside. yup it still is. i've been humiliated for god sake! i can't bear it.

1 thing that proud the most with me today.. i think professionally. what would possibly occurred if i react as i would be?

give me ur empathy. what do u feels?

sory gotta bounce.got meeting to attend